What am I gonna say? I am never a active person. I am not even aggressive enough to interest in any competative computer game I am definitely not a leader material, used to follow, not be followed, which might surprise a lot of people. they have no idea, all the tough looking on my face, only because I am scared, too scared to let anyone know and also, I am not a very talkable kind of person. getting nervous easily, not necessarily in public, or even anixety, according to my recent experience. the problem is I hold myself so badly, no one could tell. Everyone assumes I am happy, or I have the reasons to be happy, is that true? Maybe because of my totally cool appearance? Self-important or self-abased, which one is better to define me I really don't have a clue so, what am I gonna say? Things are not always what they look like. Maybe I should just remain silent, get lost from time to time and wait after almost 5 months apparently nothing changed. or , would anything be changed ever? | 
